Tomorrow marks the 3rd week of grandma’s passing.
It still hurts like it was yesterday.
I miss grandma.
happy happy
April 23, 2009 at 2:37 pm (university)
I’ve passed my clinical entrance practical exam. Took the theory test today. Lets hope I pass that too!
Only another theory exam to get through before I can officially be accepted into the clinic.
BUT.
Lookie lookie at what I have here……
Mah blue clinic jacket!
And lookie lookie!
MY name tag!!!!
So proud can!!!
oh so loved
April 22, 2009 at 9:16 pm (family, thoughts)
You know you’re loved when your in laws says only good things about you to family and friends.
Ah……. the joys of being loved.
Which reminds me of grandma. She’s never bad mouthed anyone in the family, especially her daughter in laws / daughters in law (meh????) No matter how much she dislikes any one of them she has never once said a bad thing to anyone. That’s how great a person grandmom was. I’d like to see you try to NOT talk negative things about the person you dislike.
I really really miss grandmom.
random memory
April 19, 2009 at 3:06 pm (family)
Tags: past
I have been trying desperately not to forget.
Will I one day forget how grandma looked like? How her voice sounded like?
My mind took a life of it’s own after grandma died. It has been doing a lot of reminiscing of how things used to be when she was still with us. Sigh……
I’m homesick. I want to go home. Take a break. I need to rest.
This has got nothing to do with grandma but it suddenly jumped into my head.
When we were young dad would collect rain water. Not just any rain water. He only collected it during heavy downpours and only after it has been raining for awhile. He would then store the water and use it on the car battery.
He don’t do that anymore.
Yeah. Just something random.
i told you so
April 16, 2009 at 3:30 pm (thoughts)
I remember a few years ago some words were said. Reality as I see it, reality as the few of us that knew see it.
I believe in karma. Always has.
So now karma has come to bite the both of you in the asses.
HAH!
Serve you right.
I know. I am such a bitch la. One day someone gonna be a bitch and I will be on the receiving end.
Never mind. I am enjoying the moment.
So there. I will now laugh into your faces just as how everything was rubbed into mine.
HAH!
of being thankful and sad
April 13, 2009 at 8:10 pm (family, relationships)
Big thanks to Hin Ching!
Was a pleasant surprise to see him in the airport! Don’t know how I’d gotten through last night if it wasn’t for him!
I’m missing grandma. It’s just really weird not having her with us anymore. I keep telling myself that she’s gone to a better place but still…… It’s hard.
Mom and dad said that when she passed her chest was warm. Even after 9 hours her chest was still warm. Dad said that it is stated in one of the sutras that if the chest is warm that means that the deceased has gone up whereas if the feet were warm that would mean that the deceased has gone down to a not so good place.
Sigh…… I miss grandma. T_T
I won’t get to see her anymore. =(
And to think that just over a month or so ago I held her hand and stroked her hair and watched as she slept. Can’t believe that just 2 days ago all that I was holding to was her remains.
I miss my grandmom.
=(
her last journey
April 11, 2009 at 6:56 pm (family, of life)
It’s finally over.
The past few days have been pretty hectic with prayers and grandmom’s final arrangements.
All my life there was always grandma. Now she’s gone. She has nurtured and cared for so many people during her time, even to those that she has no relations with. She really was a force to reckon with.
To see her slowly succumb to Alzheimer’s was difficult. Seeing her slowly loose herself, unable to perform the most simple things that all of us take for granted. It hurts seeing her that way.
She was hospitalized around 3 weeks ago and was bed ridden ever since. To have her pass so soon and the way she did is a blessing. We wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.
She’s gone to a better place now. A place that is rid of all the suffering that she had to endure.
Her funeral procession was magnificent, just as the person she was. Everyone that came today were people that genuinely cared about her. And to have hundreds of people of that sort come without invitation, I must say, grandmom really must have done a lot of things right in her life.
Everything went so well today, right down to the weather. I’ve heard people say that when a great person has passed it would rain and stop at the right time. Today is one of those days. The gods were mourning with us and at the same time grandmom is telling us in a way that she has indeed went up. Right when we were done with placing her ashes in the temple and were going to spread the remaining in the sea, the weather cleared up. The sky was blue with a hint of dark clouds at the distance.
I’m proud to have been a part of her life.
I take pride and joy in calling myself her granddaughter.
She will be missed.
Goodbye grandmom.
feel like giving up
April 6, 2009 at 9:17 pm (emo)
I don’t know how I’m going to do this anymore.
I’m down half the time, stressed beyond comprehension, uni is super busy, never ending housework, deaths, health problems……
I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE!!!
When is it all going to end?!!!!!
I’m so so so so so exhausted. I just don’t know how I’m going to do this.
grandma’s gone
April 4, 2009 at 11:18 am (family, of life)
This was initially a happy post of how I managed to saw off the trees in the backyard.
Then I got a call from dad.
Grandma has passed.
=(
