July 30, 2009 at 9:44 pm (piggies)
Took my babies to the vet today. Lily’s lump apparently is a cyst. BUT it’s been left there for so long that it’s started to calcify. =.= And the calcium deposits kept blocking up the syringe so the vet couldn’t get much out of it. Poor darling got jabbed twice! She was a brave trooper. =D Didn’t even scream out in pain. Hopefully with some antibiotics and really soft poo (YUCK!) later the lump will disappear!
Yung on the other hand. She has the piggy equivalent of breast cancer. They don’t know whether it’s benign or malignant but we won’t operate until it starts bothering her considering the wound will be on tummy where it drags on the floor when she walks and it’s easily accessible. It’s gonna be a problem with wound healing. And of course her age. She’s no young piggy. It’s heart breaking knowing that she has something potentially life threatening. She’s gone through so much already!!
=(
Life is just unfair sometimes.
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July 29, 2009 at 8:35 am (of life)
Have been MIA as of late.
So what have I been up to?
Sick! Possible swine flu. I kid you not. At least the worst is over. Fever is down but I’m getting some pretty bad reflux from the antibiotics.
Uni started last week and it’s crazy. Absolute madness the amount of work that is required out of us! Whoever said year 3 is bad? Pft. Masters is totally crazy! It’s only week 2 and I already have a presentation. =(
I am in white now. =D I’m starting to treat in the student clinic. Totally made a mess of myself last week. I thought I would be excited to enter clinic but now that I’m there, I’m feeling overwhelmed and drained. Where has all the hype and excitement gone? Wednesdays and Saturdays are such a drag now. Cannot wait until I’m over and done with the course. I just want to chill and not do anything for awhile.
I’m currently watching this cantonese series. In it there’s a lady that has Alzheimer’s Disease. That brought back so much memories of grandma. Sigh…… There was this scene where she peed on herself in a dressing room. I cried when I watched that because grandma too forgot what the toilet was for and peed on the bedroom floor.
I miss grandma.
Piggies are going to the vet on Thursday for a checkup. Oh lumpy lumps. Please go away.
Parker’s start this weekend! Am quite excited. Really need this little pick me up seminar.
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July 21, 2009 at 7:05 pm (piggies, university)
I found a lump on the piggies. Both. =(
Lily’s appear to be fairly mobile. I’m just assuming its an abscess.
Yung’s on the other hand is less mobile and is tender to the touch. I’m really praying that it’s nothing serious. Have made an appointment with the vet on Thursday.
It’s really emotionally draining to have one thing happen after the next. Not to mention the financial burden. I’ve gotten an estimate from the nurse that it might cost me anywhere from $300-600 for a pig. I will be so fucking broke. Seriously so broke. Please please please let it be a straight forward problem. I don’t think I can afford the vet bills.
Sometimes we do things that we think are for the best but I’ve come to realize what might be a good idea at that time does not equate to a good idea in the long run.
People annoy me. They seriously do.
I am officially in white. Meaning I get full patient privileges. I am so scared. I hope I get nice patients in tomorrow.
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July 13, 2009 at 9:19 pm (relationships, travel)
The hubby came and went. Sucks how time has to fly by so quickly when you’re having fun. I have never traveled so much in the 6 years that I am here. Sigh…… Feels so incredibly lonely since he left. 10 days of pure TLC and being taken care of. I want more of that!!!!
We’ve done some pretty incredible things, by my standards anyway. Those that know me well knows just how much I am afraid of heights. And there we were on the 88th floor of Eureka Tower, confined in a glass box that was projected out of the building with clear glass walls and floor. I was so afraid the sweat from my palm was pretty much dripping down the hand rail! It was worth it though. =D The view…… THE VIEW!!! And amazing just now encouraging the man was the whole time, and his poor arm. I had a death grip on it!
So I had a great idea to drive to Great Ocean Road. I had the GPS, the weather cleared up. Everything was puuurfect! …… until the GPS decided to fail me. >.< We got lost, kinda. Missed most of the scenic route!!! After 5 hours, we finally got there. PHEW! I don’t think I’ll ever want to do this again. It is soooooo tiring! Everything else was perfect though. It wasn’t too cold, the weather was amazing!
Besides sight seeing. We ate. And ate. And ate. And ate even more. I’ve pretty much gained back all the weight I’ve tried to shed since last year. =(
I’ve been feeling quite depressed since he left. You hear so many people saying things like how you discover more about your partner with each passing day and that feeling never fades? So true. I thought I understood him pretty well but this trip made me realize just how much more of a man he is! After so many failed relationships I think I can now say that I’ve hit jackpot!
He is so incredibly patient. So incredibly encouraging. He loves me! TONS! A bonus I’ve always hoped for is that he can cook!!! And he loves my pigs. Adores them! I didn’t even have to request that he play with them. It was the first thing he wanted to do when he stepped foot into the house. How sweet is that? To have a man love the things you hold close to your heart. =D
All the frustrations and feeling of uncertainty about the relationship just melted away. I didn’t have to even bring up any concerns and his actions pretty much proved me wrong. I think I’ll have to learn to switch my mind off. Thinking too much is really not the way to go.
I miss him.
So so much!
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July 2, 2009 at 7:15 pm (relationships)
Waaa….. I’m on a roll.
I’m just restless!!! 4 more hours.
Why can’t time go by faster and then stop.
Happy moments should never end!!!!!
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July 2, 2009 at 5:26 pm (thoughts)
Just a thought.
What makes you think you are special? Different from everyone else? You may think you are but in reality you’re not? Are you that insecure that you just have to think that you are special because if you’re not special then you’re a nobody?
A thief is still a thief no matter how you look at it.
Just like an accidental murder. Still murder ok.
In your eyes there might be a need to light up teh fayah but in another person’s point of view you’d look stupid because it’s already so hot and you’d just burn yourself in the end. Not that it’s any of the other person’s business really. Cuz you’ll do it regardless of what other people think or say because you are indeed so special. But you know what? You’ll just be the laughing stock because everyone will just sit back and watch while you play your act out and invariably die a slow painful death and all you’ve got left is a singed corpse and people watching will nod in agreement, yup! see that coming.
Who cares about the reasons when all that matters is the outcome.
All these special people. Especially those that are so fucking perasan about everything. Sigh…… Not everything is about you can? You may think I care about you but in fact I don’t really care about you and I’m just doing it so I can dig up dirt and bitch. Hm…… Do I care? Or do I not care? Is this really about you? Or is it really not about you?
All this is too much for my little brain to handle because indeed I am not a special person. So sad. Cuz I thought I was special until you came along and proved that you are more special than I am.
Boo fucking hoo.
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July 2, 2009 at 1:48 pm (relationships, thoughts)
Tags: annoyed
It’s funny how some people think that everyone owes it to them to be nice.
Get over your high horse.
What makes you think you’re better than everyone else?
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July 2, 2009 at 11:43 am (Uncategorized)
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July 1, 2009 at 7:24 am (relationships)
We knew what happened yesterday but we dare not ask.
We were worried.
I know I am in no position to say anything but since you’ve already made up your mind then stick to it and really mean what you say. Make it a clean break huh? Don’t spend the night there anymore. If anything it’s going to hurt even more and feels like there’s still hope.
So yeah, these are the things we’ve wanted to tell you a long time ago.
Don’t take it the wrong way, nothing against you.
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