Tomorrow marks the 3rd week of grandma’s passing.
It still hurts like it was yesterday.
I miss grandma.
oh so loved
April 22, 2009 at 9:16 pm (family, thoughts)
You know you’re loved when your in laws says only good things about you to family and friends.
Ah……. the joys of being loved.
Which reminds me of grandma. She’s never bad mouthed anyone in the family, especially her daughter in laws / daughters in law (meh????) No matter how much she dislikes any one of them she has never once said a bad thing to anyone. That’s how great a person grandmom was. I’d like to see you try to NOT talk negative things about the person you dislike.
I really really miss grandmom.
random memory
April 19, 2009 at 3:06 pm (family)
Tags: past
I have been trying desperately not to forget.
Will I one day forget how grandma looked like? How her voice sounded like?
My mind took a life of it’s own after grandma died. It has been doing a lot of reminiscing of how things used to be when she was still with us. Sigh……
I’m homesick. I want to go home. Take a break. I need to rest.
This has got nothing to do with grandma but it suddenly jumped into my head.
When we were young dad would collect rain water. Not just any rain water. He only collected it during heavy downpours and only after it has been raining for awhile. He would then store the water and use it on the car battery.
He don’t do that anymore.
Yeah. Just something random.
of being thankful and sad
April 13, 2009 at 8:10 pm (family, relationships)
Big thanks to Hin Ching!
Was a pleasant surprise to see him in the airport! Don’t know how I’d gotten through last night if it wasn’t for him!
I’m missing grandma. It’s just really weird not having her with us anymore. I keep telling myself that she’s gone to a better place but still…… It’s hard.
Mom and dad said that when she passed her chest was warm. Even after 9 hours her chest was still warm. Dad said that it is stated in one of the sutras that if the chest is warm that means that the deceased has gone up whereas if the feet were warm that would mean that the deceased has gone down to a not so good place.
Sigh…… I miss grandma. T_T
I won’t get to see her anymore. =(
And to think that just over a month or so ago I held her hand and stroked her hair and watched as she slept. Can’t believe that just 2 days ago all that I was holding to was her remains.
I miss my grandmom.
=(
her last journey
April 11, 2009 at 6:56 pm (family, of life)
It’s finally over.
The past few days have been pretty hectic with prayers and grandmom’s final arrangements.
All my life there was always grandma. Now she’s gone. She has nurtured and cared for so many people during her time, even to those that she has no relations with. She really was a force to reckon with.
To see her slowly succumb to Alzheimer’s was difficult. Seeing her slowly loose herself, unable to perform the most simple things that all of us take for granted. It hurts seeing her that way.
She was hospitalized around 3 weeks ago and was bed ridden ever since. To have her pass so soon and the way she did is a blessing. We wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.
She’s gone to a better place now. A place that is rid of all the suffering that she had to endure.
Her funeral procession was magnificent, just as the person she was. Everyone that came today were people that genuinely cared about her. And to have hundreds of people of that sort come without invitation, I must say, grandmom really must have done a lot of things right in her life.
Everything went so well today, right down to the weather. I’ve heard people say that when a great person has passed it would rain and stop at the right time. Today is one of those days. The gods were mourning with us and at the same time grandmom is telling us in a way that she has indeed went up. Right when we were done with placing her ashes in the temple and were going to spread the remaining in the sea, the weather cleared up. The sky was blue with a hint of dark clouds at the distance.
I’m proud to have been a part of her life.
I take pride and joy in calling myself her granddaughter.
She will be missed.
Goodbye grandmom.
grandma’s gone
April 4, 2009 at 11:18 am (family, of life)
This was initially a happy post of how I managed to saw off the trees in the backyard.
Then I got a call from dad.
Grandma has passed.
=(
yup. this is one heck of a year!
March 14, 2009 at 9:19 pm (family)
Dad called.
Grandma is not in good shape. The breast cancer has spread to her bone. There’s nothing we can do for her anymore other than to ease her pain and making her as comfortable as possible. It will be hard watching her waste away. She was a force to reckon with before the sickness took over.
So many deaths……
what a year
March 14, 2009 at 9:18 am (family, of life)
2009 is proving to be a really difficult year!
Girl died.
Relationships died.
Family issues.
Bf’s medical report showed that he had a terminal disease thank god it was only a false positive!! But there’s still his liver to watch out for. My goodness the 2 weeks that we were waiting for confirmation results to come out are the longest 2 weeks I had to go through.
Grandma was hospitalized last night. She has breast cancer and in the advance stages of Alzheimer’s. We still don’t know how bad the cancer is. Told dad to advise the relatives to get some xray done just so we know how long she’s got left. In the condition that she is in, there is no way any form of therapy/treatment can be done…… but I still reckon we should at least know how far along the cancer is so we can all prepare ourselves. Lets see that they say about the xrays.
Sigh……
Thins just cannot possibly get worse, right?
big ME, little me
January 6, 2009 at 2:38 pm (emo, family, relationships)
Even my parents think that I am in the wrong. They tell me to not always argue with him because he is a good man. A very good, dependable man.
Ok.
My fault. AGAIN.
Then daddy said I need to learn to let loose of the ‘me’. I am not the only living being here on this planet and the world does not revolve around me. Give and take can? With that he said I will lead a happier life.
Ok.
Never mind about me then because when something comes up it is ALWAYS my temper, my fault. Admittedly I do have a badass temper, my fuse is superby short and I think I am right half the time but I don’t loose my temper for no reason ok?
I have every right to be angry.
We agreed that since he has to work during the day and is so damned busy that at night would be our time to do stuff together. Ok loh. I agree. After all he has to work for a living. I sure as hell do not want my man to be a bum that feeds off his father. So useless. There goes having breakfast with him. There goes lunch. There goes dinner. Unless I get lucky and he has some teeny bit of time to spare for lil’ old me. I’m fine with that. Never mind that he gets off work so damn late. Never mind that he cannot have dinners with me because he gets off work so damn late. I am repeating myself.
Now, what gets me fuming is when my time, what little time that I have with him is stolen from me because he has to work. I mean, c’mon!!! Already getting off work late, ok?!! Can spare me some time to do what I want?
It’s already January. Soon I will be back in Melbourne for 2 years with hardly any holidays meaning that I might not be able to come home. This is my last looooong holiday and how have we been speding it? Pretty much doing nothing! I can count with one hand the amount of times we went to the movies and shopping and I have been back for almost 2 months.
I am starting to loose my line of thoughts.
I am so disappointed. So so so so so disappointed at how things are turning out. I sure as hell don’t know how things will turn out after I return to Melbourne.
I’m so tired. I won’t put in anymore effort into trying to make things work because my efforts will only be met with disappointments.
I’m not making any sense. Going to take nap now. Tiiiiiiiired.
ZZZzzzzZZZzzzz…….
if you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em!
October 16, 2008 at 8:59 am (family)
Tags: amused
Dad has a love for chocs. Especially those with hazel nuts in them.
Mom? She’s always trying to get dad to stop eating them.
So, I called home the other day to ask what dad wanted me to bring him this time. Surprise, surprise. Chocolate with hazel nuts is what he wants.
Mom? She wants the same stuff.
I figured since she can’t get dad to stop might as well join in the fun.
Ah…… the joys of being husband and wife.
